That's what honestly went through my head when I saw my L1R5.

I meant it when I said I expected an 25 for my L1R4 ok. I don't say it just for the sake of saying it.

My score is not bad, but it's not THAT good either. I know many people who did better than I did.

But I'm okay with it, considering the fact that I only studied seriously from 2pm - 5pm the week before the first paper, including the hour of window shopping at random starbucks with qiyuan.

Even so, it's not like I paid 100% attention, we chatted as though we were just having coffee.

So yeah, I'm contented with my results.

However, it's not like I don't regret not studying harder.

Sometimes late at night, I do think about the grades I could have gotten if I had just studied a tad more.

Well, but what's done is done, so I choose to move along.

There's so many options to post-secondary education. TOO MANY.

I used to have such a clear vision of what I wanted and where I wanted to go after getting my results.

But I realised it's just not as simple as that.

People around me, especially the elders are persuading me to enter JC and they have so much faith that I'll do well for A levels and get in a good uni. To be honest, I am a little convinced to do so.

On the other hand, there are other seniors who say that poly is a better option if I already know what I want to do, or else I can buy myself another 2 years at a JC to think it through. I sort of do have an idea, but I'm still hesitant.

I do want to enter a Uni after poly still, preferably the Law faculty or maybe Social Science. I know it's harder to get in through the poly route, but I am a strong believer in being able to truely excel when I genuinely enjoy the learning process.

I have no idea. I definitely did not expect choosing a post secondary education to be this difficult.

Despite all the headache, one thing good about the release of results is reconnecting with people from so long ago. Friends from Primary School, seniors from my CCA whom I haven't been in contact with for so long, even relatives I've not met in a long while. Specifically, I enjoyed catching up with my seniors because they provide the best advice, all the inside jokes. You know, I've never mentioned this, but I love every senior in my CCA, they are like brothers to me, even if we haven't talked for I-don't-know-how-long, I still feel bonded and connected to them when we catch up.

I've always thought it was weird that I have friends entering NS and taking up driving, all the things people do while entering adulthood. It all seems so surreal especially when the last time we actually met was two years ago or something. Everyone is growing up, sooner than we realise we may be working and who knows recieving invitation cards to weddings. I don't know how many people gets this feeling but I do every time I talk to someone from my past.

Filling up that 12 blank spaces on Form A is so hard.

Figuring out the order of the courses is difficult.

I am honestly in a dilemma.

HAAIZZ

My O levels results are okay, but why do I feel like my future is so bleak? :(

Shall probably get back to rearranging my courses now, will update soon. Bye

PS quick shout out to Vernon and his girlfriend. HII HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY HAVE A GREAT ONE AND LAST LONG TOGETHER :D